Well, the phonecalls are still going out, but there's still no word on what's going to happen. It's all contingent on me getting all sorts of forms, and meetings, and faxing things. Lord only knows...

I've beginning to think about what to do if I cant work it out and I have to drop all my classes. I guess I would just work. Perhaps work more. Pick up another tutoring client or start cleaning my boss' house again. I would focus on paying off that credit card and getting financially stable even more so. Continue trying to get in shape, continue with my music. So all would not be terrible. But I really just want to stay in school. If I end up skipping out on this semester, I'll definitely go during the summer.

Sigh. It just sucks, because even if I do get this scholarship, I still have to pay $2000, and I dont have it. I'm not going to max out my CC's again trying to pay for classes. I'm still paying for the last time I did that. This was what I was trying to avoid by joining the army. Jeez.

But moving on from all that depressing hooplah... car still hasn't broke down on me. That's positive. lol. Tutored last night. Made $20. They want to go an extra half hour, if the mom can pull together the money. I feel terrible that I cant just tutor for free. I really do care about the success of these kids, and I know everyone is hurting financially. If my time wasn't so valuable these days, and if I wasn't hurting so much myself, I would certainly tutor for much less. I still may give her a steep discount on the additional time if she cant manage it. The kid really does need the help.

Tutoring again tonight, and I have class. Not sure if I'm going out tonight or not. I really shouldn't spend the money. Even if it is just one drink. This weekend I have drill, though, so I probably wont be going out. We'll see, I guess. All this talk of money makes me so sad. I wish we weren't all so dependent on it. It's crazy how much influence the amount of money we have vs. the amount we need has on our daily lives, and our attitudes.

At any rate, I should get back to work Hope everyone is doing well.